Aesthetics

Gender studies

Psychoanalysis

Literature

Mathematical analysis

Writing style

Blues

Sociology

Psychology

Neuroscience

Professional writing

Pedagogy

Creative writing

Autoethnography

Content (measure theory)

Identity (music)

Depiction

Mathematics

Art history

Taste

Management Learning

In this essay, I would like to ask if we are concerned with writing about difference or writing differently. I attempt to present an account of my on-going experience of dysphoria and consider how I write about that experience. I reveal how my writing has no epiphany, is repetitive and in its characterless depiction of others is a two-dimensional, monologue that fails the conventions of an evocative autoethnographic account. My writing is ‘bad writing’ but what should become of it? Does a concern with style, whether or not over content, based on taste preclude some stories and different ways of writing? Should I be excluded from academe and silenced, or can room be found for a tasteless account like mine? I end my essay by provocatively owning the label of bad writing.

My dysphoria blues: Or why I cannot write an autoethnography